Time alone can be so rewarding!

I have taken a little bit of a cyber-hiatus, if you will!  Since last week I decided to take time off from computer blogging, facebooking and texting etc.  I spent the entire weekend alone without children and it was so nice.  On those weekends is when I can let my hair down and feel more like a woman than a mother for a little while and go out and have fun, date and do whatever I want to.  But this weekend was a perfect example of doing exactly what I wanted to.  I was reminded this weekend, once again, of how being single still has its benefits.  I chose to be alone this weekend.  I had no kids at home, no customers and I decided to rent lots of movies that I have wanted to see but they may not have been kid friendly and I sat on the couch eating and watching movies, the ENTIRE weekend.  I loved it!  I did not worry myself with cleaning, cooking or anything.  I had nobody calling my name or wondering what is for dinner or where is something they cannot find...you know how it goes!!  I just relaxed and found myself thankful for the ability to be alone and knowing that it is my choice and it's wonderful. When you are single you have choice as to how you want to spend your time, even though kids do alter that for you somewhat...but remove that from the equation and it makes it ALL ABOUT ME and how I choose to spend my time.  I had already made my mind up that if any guy called and wanted to go out and do something, then it was going to be a big NO!  I can do that!!  Yes, I do say NO sometimes! :)  I had the mindset to go out Friday night and nothing panned out and after waking up Saturday morning whenever I wanted to, I realized that I wanted to spend the entire weekend like that.  I found myself recalling all of the relationships I have been in since I was about 14 years old..... now I still love MEN just as much as I always have and really enjoy their company but since I have had the pleasure of enjoying many of their company...now I can pick and choose and be a bit selective if I choose or do not select at all.  I believe at times my moods affected my relationships as well...When we live alone and date around, Men only see us at our best, usually.  We are prepared for a date and when and where we get together, but once we are in a relationship and/or married then we witness each others different looks, moods etc...and it is not always a pretty site.  Men do not always understand our mood swings and we do not always understand theirs.  Some days you wake up and you just are not in the mood to deal with people in general!  If you have a great man that gives you the space that you need and leaves you alone, it is a great blessing.  I always had men that became dependant on me and looked to me for EVERYTHING!! Whether they wanted something specific for dinner or they needed more beer or needed me to call somewhere for them or run an errand for them.  Most of the men I became involved with were no different than my children, they were just as needy and dependant and it became overwhelming at times and it seemed as though I NEVER had a day off.  I finally got a break when I got divorced! LOL...that's when they help with the kids and Mom can finally have some ME time...It is crazy that I found myself to be so much better off as a single mom than married.  Mind you, this is me...marriage is a wonderful thing for some people and I have to admit that I chose the WRONG ones and that is why my relationships took so much work.  I was always told that it took 50/50 to make a relationship work...but you know what??? That is not correct AT ALL!!!   It takes 100% from BOTH sides....I think we should ALWAYS get out of a relationship as much as we put into it, because it takes two!  So until I meet someone that gives me that much, I prefer to be alone and do my own thing.  Being alone is wonderful and I found it to be very rewarding I just may start doing that even more often.  My weekends alone do not need to be filled with different men, different plans etc...but if I choose to do that one weekend than it is my prerogative to do so.  I love being single! I have spent a majority of my life taking care of other people, especially men.  Now it is time to take care of ME!